| Looking at my right middle fingernail, I can't help but question why I have tortured myself so.
Will it, one day finally reach the end?
Not only do I torture it, I like to examine it during all hours of the day.
Put it in front of my computer screen so I can see the perfect silhouette of my tiny fingernail.
Measure it side by side with other fingernails and asses it's ratio of length.
Push down on it to feel the pain.
Cover what's left of it and see just how short it has become by examining the nail-less finger tip.
Use my left normal fingernail to outline where my nail is supposed to be.
And when I can find a place to pick, I will pick at it again and make it even shorter and more painful.
Will I ever stop torturing my right middle finger?
It's an itch, an addiction that I can't get rid of.
Is there rehab for this? haha. Maybe I can go shave my head and go clubbing w/ my tiny fingernail.
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| Yep..so here I am slacking away @ 4:30pm,
because everyone in my team has left already. So yay I'm finally not a bum.
Been at this new job for a bit over a month now...
and while I do like it, and it is better than what I was expecting,
I don't feel happy.
Life seems so disappointing. I'm so unsatisfied.
I don't know what I want, and I don't know what I can get.
The more I think about it, the more I realize how naive and ignorant I was.
Yes to some degree I agree that money can't solve all problems.
But it will definitely solve 99.99% of problems, and I dunno bout you but that sounds okay to me.
To think, I JUST realized that life will not work out smoothly like I imagined.
Always thought that there'll be obstacles, but no matter what it will always work out.
Well it has always worked out in the past.
But I know it's not gonna be the same ever again in the future.
All I have to look foward to right now is Rebecca Shu.
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